random... thing... like... you know...

[confliction]

man this entry is gonna suck ass

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revolutions rocked, and man oh man...
...oh man...
...the thing...
...with the things...
...it's so cool!

Trying not to spoil it, lol.

Just think... Dragon Ball Z... hehe.

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*sigh*

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i get so much out of movies and art and stuff...
...music especially...

but i feel so low right now

something happened which really brought it home for me
by societies standards i'm really not cut out for social crap

i just don't think like most people...
...i hate nightclubs...
...i think if people put more time into finding their partner
and making sure they are who they say they are
and that they get along
then people would be a lot less stressed about relationships.

basically, i could of pulled or some shit like that last night
but i wasn't having any of it
it's not how i work, and its not how i want to work

dumb fucking societal 'norms'

she claimed it was a friendly chat anyway
i was sittin on my own in this club night that my housemate runs

anyways...

i hate people judging me by their standards
especially when society has no fucking standards.

this entry is sad

as in, what the hell am i on about

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i feel alone

forever

eternally

future

past

and present...

i feel alone

some know me better than others

but you all have your doubts

and that's the issue really...
like...
philosophically, we can't know anyone...
...i guess everyone fears it...
...it's the human condition...
...to not be understood.

Ignorance might be bliss,
but it's a price i can't afford.

The wool's not being pulled over my eyes,
i don't want to join the flock.

I'll just suffer in existential despair instead...

...and fight the hordes of the blind who don't understand the Matrix movies.

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what can i do?

take it a day at a time...?

I'm going to Paris soon, that will keep me occupied for a while.

Long story as to why i'm going...
...and you probably wouldn't believe me anyway.
I mean... you'll accept the story...
...you'll just judge my motives on your own terms.

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Space is a lonely place.
and inside my head ain't any better.

Comments

[popsickle.livejournal.com]

Awww Jaymeee! *hugs* you're sad too? This isn;'t good, you can talk to me Tuesday though yea? I know where youre coming from, i hate society and nightclubs and all that pulling crap, i totally understand, i thought i was the only one :/...havent seen Matrix yet...will soon hopefully...Ya goin to Paris? Cool, why, when, who with? Tell me all Tuesday yaaa?
Feel better *hugs*
<3 me xxxx

[confliction.livejournal.com]

thankyou for the hugs :) we're not the only ones... but there aren't enough of us to make a majority, if you catch what i mean. we'll talk tuesday! cool
*hugs* for you too
Take Care :)
<3 xxJJxx

Re: oh let the nuclear wind blow away my sins...

[confliction.livejournal.com]

lol

here's another

"if we all work together we can beat the system"

lmao

[hentaiko.livejournal.com]

"...and fight the hordes of the blind who don't understand the Matrix movies."

although everyone 'understands' movies in their own way (insert crap about encoding/decoding theory taught to us in media studies), i have to still agree that everyone appears to take it at face value. i haven't seen the last one yet, i've heard very mixed reviews (was it the times that gave it a 1/5, but then again, they would, wouldn't they. heat magazine gave it 4/5, and said it was too CGI-y and that action sequences went on for too many minutes to really care what went on), but of course im still going to watch it it. i guess its how people relate to the movies. it is easy to compare the matrix trilogy to any other action movies, which in society we tend to do alot with the comparisons.
i haven't read completely your post, so i will comment again next weekend (when i get back), but theres my 5 cent (or however many pence that is here ^_^)

oh yeah, steph says im a monkey. completely unrelated i believe...

[confliction.livejournal.com]

but you are a monkey... and it's completely related... don't you see? :P

i think it's hilarious... the way people are taking these movies... the 3rd one, for me, is pure genius... in that it deny's them exactly what they want, while simultaneously giving them what they asked for...

you'll see what i mean :D

[beanybeany.livejournal.com]

Feel better dude - being alone is the most sucky thing in the world. I think we can possibly agree on that one of the reasons people exist is to form relationships with other people, and if that isn't happening... sad for you.

"with much knowledge comes much sorrow" - Ecclesiastes... Ignorance is high price, indeed. Aparently, though, there is nearly no-one who doesn't think they have an open mind. Which is interesting.

And I haven't seen the Matrix yet, so I couldn't possible comment. Unfortuneatly, I've stumbled upon some git who spoilt one of the main points for me... Evil internet

And the social norms thing is so true - but perhaps her motives were innocent? Yeah, though, I look for deeper stuff than that in a relationship too. What are your aims in the whole dating area? It's an interesting question...

All the best, hope Paris is enjoyable. And judging... that's an interesting one. People use it interchangably with condemn nowadays, which frustrates me a little bit, but it's just language, really

[greenhayze.livejournal.com]

Well, I feel for you on the lonliness thing but did you ever think that maybe not being understood is partly your own doing? I dont mean that to you personally, aimed at all people including myself. Dont think its a good idea to elabourate here but shall explain later. Anyway, yes, everyone craves to be understood which is why people spend so much time talking over one another.
As for what you were saying about relationships; well, buddhism says the one infallible way to have a good relationship with a partner is to accept every facet of them without reservation. Which if you think about it is bloody hard to do but there you go.

And on a last point, I came, I saw the Matrix. Or should I say, I saw, I came. Twas great. I just pray to the god I dont believe in that the wackowskis have the good taste to leave it as a neat trilogy and not do any epilogues or prequels or any of that bullshit. Its so nicely rounded off it would be a crying shame.

-Caz

P.S. FFX-2 out soon! Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!!!