random... thing... like... you know...

[confliction]

man this entry is gonna suck ass

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revolutions rocked, and man oh man...
...oh man...
...the thing...
...with the things...
...it's so cool!

Trying not to spoil it, lol.

Just think... Dragon Ball Z... hehe.

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*sigh*

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i get so much out of movies and art and stuff...
...music especially...

but i feel so low right now

something happened which really brought it home for me
by societies standards i'm really not cut out for social crap

i just don't think like most people...
...i hate nightclubs...
...i think if people put more time into finding their partner
and making sure they are who they say they are
and that they get along
then people would be a lot less stressed about relationships.

basically, i could of pulled or some shit like that last night
but i wasn't having any of it
it's not how i work, and its not how i want to work

dumb fucking societal 'norms'

she claimed it was a friendly chat anyway
i was sittin on my own in this club night that my housemate runs

anyways...

i hate people judging me by their standards
especially when society has no fucking standards.

this entry is sad

as in, what the hell am i on about

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i feel alone

forever

eternally

future

past

and present...

i feel alone

some know me better than others

but you all have your doubts

and that's the issue really...
like...
philosophically, we can't know anyone...
...i guess everyone fears it...
...it's the human condition...
...to not be understood.

Ignorance might be bliss,
but it's a price i can't afford.

The wool's not being pulled over my eyes,
i don't want to join the flock.

I'll just suffer in existential despair instead...

...and fight the hordes of the blind who don't understand the Matrix movies.

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what can i do?

take it a day at a time...?

I'm going to Paris soon, that will keep me occupied for a while.

Long story as to why i'm going...
...and you probably wouldn't believe me anyway.
I mean... you'll accept the story...
...you'll just judge my motives on your own terms.

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Space is a lonely place.
and inside my head ain't any better.

Comments

[beanybeany.livejournal.com]

Feel better dude - being alone is the most sucky thing in the world. I think we can possibly agree on that one of the reasons people exist is to form relationships with other people, and if that isn't happening... sad for you.

"with much knowledge comes much sorrow" - Ecclesiastes... Ignorance is high price, indeed. Aparently, though, there is nearly no-one who doesn't think they have an open mind. Which is interesting.

And I haven't seen the Matrix yet, so I couldn't possible comment. Unfortuneatly, I've stumbled upon some git who spoilt one of the main points for me... Evil internet

And the social norms thing is so true - but perhaps her motives were innocent? Yeah, though, I look for deeper stuff than that in a relationship too. What are your aims in the whole dating area? It's an interesting question...

All the best, hope Paris is enjoyable. And judging... that's an interesting one. People use it interchangably with condemn nowadays, which frustrates me a little bit, but it's just language, really