random... thing... like... you know...

[confliction]

man this entry is gonna suck ass

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revolutions rocked, and man oh man...
...oh man...
...the thing...
...with the things...
...it's so cool!

Trying not to spoil it, lol.

Just think... Dragon Ball Z... hehe.

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*sigh*

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i get so much out of movies and art and stuff...
...music especially...

but i feel so low right now

something happened which really brought it home for me
by societies standards i'm really not cut out for social crap

i just don't think like most people...
...i hate nightclubs...
...i think if people put more time into finding their partner
and making sure they are who they say they are
and that they get along
then people would be a lot less stressed about relationships.

basically, i could of pulled or some shit like that last night
but i wasn't having any of it
it's not how i work, and its not how i want to work

dumb fucking societal 'norms'

she claimed it was a friendly chat anyway
i was sittin on my own in this club night that my housemate runs

anyways...

i hate people judging me by their standards
especially when society has no fucking standards.

this entry is sad

as in, what the hell am i on about

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i feel alone

forever

eternally

future

past

and present...

i feel alone

some know me better than others

but you all have your doubts

and that's the issue really...
like...
philosophically, we can't know anyone...
...i guess everyone fears it...
...it's the human condition...
...to not be understood.

Ignorance might be bliss,
but it's a price i can't afford.

The wool's not being pulled over my eyes,
i don't want to join the flock.

I'll just suffer in existential despair instead...

...and fight the hordes of the blind who don't understand the Matrix movies.

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what can i do?

take it a day at a time...?

I'm going to Paris soon, that will keep me occupied for a while.

Long story as to why i'm going...
...and you probably wouldn't believe me anyway.
I mean... you'll accept the story...
...you'll just judge my motives on your own terms.

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Space is a lonely place.
and inside my head ain't any better.

Comments

[popsickle.livejournal.com]

Awww Jaymeee! *hugs* you're sad too? This isn;'t good, you can talk to me Tuesday though yea? I know where youre coming from, i hate society and nightclubs and all that pulling crap, i totally understand, i thought i was the only one :/...havent seen Matrix yet...will soon hopefully...Ya goin to Paris? Cool, why, when, who with? Tell me all Tuesday yaaa?
Feel better *hugs*
<3 me xxxx

[confliction.livejournal.com]

thankyou for the hugs :) we're not the only ones... but there aren't enough of us to make a majority, if you catch what i mean. we'll talk tuesday! cool
*hugs* for you too
Take Care :)
<3 xxJJxx