Buck Flux

[confliction]

So i'm moved once again to type... to do what i should be doing. But by the strangest of things. It started with one person, kitschkat and seems to be exponentially gaining momentum... that is... the number of Russian LJ users who are adding my otherwise mostly lifeless journal to their friends list. I'm interested... if any of you are listening... as to why that may be? What draws you to this blog?

The fulcrum for my now engaging with you all comes from a different source entirely... almost. yobubba added me a while ago and i thoroughly enjoy his photography of the Belize environ. I had noticed he spoke fluent russian with some of his audience... or so i thought... until a recent post revealed to me something i hadn't realized had been released yet. That is... the google translator! Now i should translate your journals and see if i would like to add you in return! ^_^

Not to understate my find... the google translator is by far the best i've ever come across. To demonstrate i'll translate the following phrase using the widely known Babelfish and then Google:

Мне нравится, как в Интернете позволяет всем нам быть так близко, и доля.

Babelfish - It pleases me, as in the Internet makes possible for all for us to be so closely, and the portion.

Google - I like how the Internet allows us all to be so close, and share.

Holy fucking shit that's a big difference... no more herculean feats of poetic interpretation!

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Obviously all of this is not to mention the tragic events beset upon the people of Ossetia. And the fact that livejournal is now russian owned. Big confluence of events all around really... thrusting a realm of the world into my conscience more so than it had ever been.

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In other news, i've moved around the country a bit and am finally settling down in one place. Secured a reasonably paying night shift doing pretty easy work that i'm familiar with. So it won't be long before i get back into my usual swing of things around these parts!

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Oh yeah, and the U.S. election is looking fucking tragic. Not to mention the economy, both in the States and elsewhere, which is looking like a fire-sale in reverse. Or something like that. It amazes me that people are seriously considering bailing out these piss-ant banks with hundreds of billions of dollars. Why can't they just secure the lives of those affected by sharing the sum out amongst them? That's sure to stimulate the economy a whole shit load more than keeping banks afloat that are already dead in the water.

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Incompetence pisses me off.

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And lastly... the best remedy for someone who doesn't write at all... is to just start writing... it'll come out eventually. A nod to the one who already writes, but finds it hard to write. I've no idea about such a situation... although you seem almost moved to start yourself.

Comments

Metafictions

[ex-revolutem972.livejournal.com]

I've recently described the writing process as a pendulum between writhing in wave after wave of alien emotional states, and the belief that the writhing is a defense-mechanism-turned-addiction-to-self-deception. What's driven me of late is the drive for such a pursuit; in other words: why write at all?. I've dove through every cause and found them all by parts painfully honest yet still managing to miss the mark. Whether the aim is selfish or altruistic, manipulative or enriching and uplifting does not matter to the end result: this contribution to what philosophers call the Great Conversation between all of us, but which goes even beyond them and the obsessive line-drawing and meat-carving those sorts do.

I find myself prostrate before this altar, nearly terrified to the core of offering up an unworthy sacrifice that I would dare to call a Great Work to the ages, wanting these ideas of mine so clarified and rendered they'll cut right through a man. Wanting every word to be exact and useful. What better picture of our grand human psychosis then to frame the wild World in such terms?

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I find the Russian journalers in the majority to be void of the smarmy self-assured playacting and obsession with irony that is substituted for discourse these days. The sonofabitches are earnest, if nothing else, and that goes a long way.

Re: Metafictions

[confliction.livejournal.com]

Their earnestness belies a faithfulness to the immediacy we should all feel. It's also reflective of motivation.

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Your contribution to the Great Conversation thus far is already immeasurable. The chain effects of which will not be known for some time. You could slave over one master piece for the rest of your life, refining it with greater and smaller precision until it is truly signed with your blood. Only in the years to come can the World gain the perspective to begin roughly gauging the extent of its greatness. Your greatness. Can you live not knowing that... or die knowing this? Do you want the recognition before you pass? Is it about you? By pursuit do you mean a living? Because that kind of recognition can be measured in cold hard cash. Although it has not at all been a reliable indicator of greatness... especially for those before their time.

C/would writing for writing's sake be enough?

On a different note, the writhing, rendering, prostrating and sacrificing is all yours. Clarification and sharpening can come through conversation... those lucky few who get to vet your work-in-progress.

[shadowsofgod.livejournal.com]

Howdy, you're one of the new moderators for guerillanews now. Thanks for volunteering to take over!

[confliction.livejournal.com]

No worries, glad to be able to help keep things healthy... even if it's been a little quiet lately. Hope life is treating well, as well as hectically ;)

[essius.livejournal.com]

Why have I been banned from commenting in abstractthought?

[confliction.livejournal.com]

Ok, at first i just thought it might be something to do with a history in this community that i am not aware. After some digging, however, i've become confused.

Instead of being a straight forward case of me ticking the correct boxes next to your name.... there is no name. You've not been banned. Somehow you have left us.

You should be able to post if you join the community ^_^

Other than that, i can't help you.

[essius.livejournal.com]

I just tried to join and it says I have been banned from joining. x_x

[confliction.livejournal.com]

Most confusing... i can't even seem to find a ban list, let alone your name.

Try this http://www.livejournal.com/manage/invites.bml

[essius.livejournal.com]

Still a negative. : /

[confliction.livejournal.com]

Hmm... i've found the ban list using the admin console 'ban_list' command. I've put forward a discussion with the other moderators as to what on Earth is going on... unfortunately i'm going to keep you on the list until the issue is resolved. So hold your thought ^_^

[confliction.livejournal.com]

Ok, i've unban you from the community under the condition that you read and understand the context in which it had happened. We don't want the style of atmosphere that is perpetuated by the likes of the other names on the ban list.

Please read http://community.livejournal.com/abstractmods/2660.html for more.

You may still have to rejoin the community in order to post.

Thank you for your patience :)

[essius.livejournal.com]

I find it interesting that I never got a warning, nor any substantiation for this notion that I am generally a large pain in the ass in whichever form I choose, or that I bring "philosophy bullshit" here, whatever that means.

But thanks for clearing that up for me.

[essius.livejournal.com]

By the way, for the record, anosognosia is not a sockpuppet.

[confliction.livejournal.com]

I didn't mean to infer that you brought such an environ with you, merely that you may have been implicated by virtue of an apparent association with the likes that do.

Not a sockpuppet ay? Fair enough... hunch averted ^^

[teh-mad-bomber.livejournal.com]

That just goes to show you how much more reliable Google is than other web sites. Ironically enough, it has been drilled into our minds at my school that most information obtained from that source is 'falsified.' ... are you yourself Russian? (just curious)

[confliction.livejournal.com]

I don't think the information on google is 'falsified', as such, but it is definitely skewed towards those sites with more monetary backing that can afford to be higher up the results pages.

I'm not Russian though, no. Just have a healthy interest in all things 'Earth' ;) Ok, maybe it's an unhealthy interest :P

So how did you come to be so cynical about society... and people... and stuff? That entry on societysucks was pretty enthralling... endearing... whatever the word is. It's kind cool to see others thinking like that... as long as you've done your research and keep on looking... you know? Which it seems like you'll be doing if you're not already... as you've taken the sacred oath, right? ;) As in... you want to ride this shit out... see where it goes... your life, life on Earth etc.

[teh-mad-bomber.livejournal.com]

most likely I developed the views that I did due to being neutral on the whole issue from the start. I grew up sepparate from others, (homeschooled), and was able to percieve society from the view of an outsider rather than grow up with it (and have it be part of my life unknowingly). In other words the opinions I took were my own, un-influenced by others. Over the course of the years (when eventually I DID attend public school), the 'popular girls' took an interest to me, and would have made me one of their own if not fr the intervention of the 'unpopular girls', who I noticed were treated like human garbage. Although still on good terms with the 'beautiful people', I began to value the so-called 'losers' ' company more.

I've also lost a few good friends, all because they cared too much what people thought, and decided to change so more people would like them, to get boyfriends, ect. Also, I grew up with an incredibly twisted view of friendship, love, and happiness, all due to coming from a home where children weren't treated as humans. I might have taken on different views if I lacked the ability to see things for what they were, but (fortunatly), I learned a few things pretty early on that aided me and my perceptions. :3

[confliction.livejournal.com]

That's pretty awesome... i started reading John Taylor Gatto's book about 7 years ago, but put it down for until quite recently. Now i wish i had of read it to the end before i went to University! Although i've always been in institutional schooling, i knew it was bunk from the beginning. It wasn't until my mum got a computer and the internet for work reasons that i was able to access this great medium called the internet. I was lost for a long long time and still haven't quite put it to good use. Time currently being a big restraint. It is interesting to think that the lack of a need to conform seems linked to the ability to form 'neutral' points of view - to weigh things more fairly.

I've also experienced similar things in regards to losing friends who 'gave in' - one even manipulating me with lies just to appease his new found friends. There's nothing quite like the feeling of betrayal.

How do you mean, if i may ask, by 'children weren't treated as humans.'?

It's reassuring that, in the end, you feel your situation is fortunate ;)