Crinkley Kiwi

[confliction]

Woah, like, where have you all been?

Glad you're all back.
It was lonely without you.
Was quite black.
Kinda dark too.

Oh... alright, I admit it.
I haven't updated in over 2 months.
My last proper post was pretty crap and ranting too.
Let's see how this one fairs.

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[< insert intelligent and meaningful poetry here >]

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Hmmm, how... post-modern...

So, what's worth talking about in the world that is me.

That's not an attempt at overtly ego-centrist behaviour by the way,
just a way to express a life that only I can experience.

There's a world that is you too.
Brings a whole new meaning to the phrase 'when world's collide'.

Or maybe not.
Probably brings exactly the same meaning to the phrase.

Moving on...

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Loner,
Moaner,
Public groaner,
Private stoner.

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You know, putting stuff down into words is dangerous stuff.
It makes me sit here and think:
"What can I write... hmmm.. nope, that's boring...
...that's boring... and so's that... hmmm... can't
remember what I've done in the past two months...
apart from sit in my room for more than 50% of the
time... good god."

How can one write entertaining entries about nothing exciting?

This radio station is annoying me,
the DJ seems to enjoy skipping the intro to every song.

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I eat peanuts.

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Musically, I'm still pretty much where I was.

Saw some crazy stuff at the local Adelphi club.
This experimental band with some crazy Japanese singer / hippie.

Then some cool punk band called Jeffrey Lewis from lower-east side, NY.
He's good at using lyrics to explain things, in a historical perspective it seems.
Pretty amusing, entertaining, and dare I say, educational.
Good comic artist too.
Hopefully he'll be appreciated for the Artist he is... one day.

Here's a mouthful...
...this Saturday I hope to check out, quote:
an 'Irish anarcho emo crust punk' band.

That was like trying to pronounce my own name with a mouth full of cheese.
The regular kind...

Anywho, they are playing at a pub somewhere, I should find out where and get my ass there ASAP!

I heard Biffy Clyro are playing at our Union venue too,
supposedly this Friday, but I'm too lazy to find out.

Also playing at a screen near you...
ummm...
...at a place near me...
is Hell Is For Heroes!
Lucky Nine are the main support band, plus there's a band called Aereogramme.

For those of you who don't know who Lucky Nine are (that includes me):
"Comprising Dan P Carter of A,
Colin Doran of Hundred Reasons,
Stuart Quinnell and Rob Coleman of Understand,
Richie Mills of Cable/Sunna
and Ben Doyle of Above All" - DrownedinSound.com

Jeeze, look at me. Pretending I read relevent websites.
I just found it in google, calm yourselves.

I'm still getting used to enjoying 'live music, yet shit sound quality' thing.
So I'll probably sit at the back somewhere, away from the local Hull rock teen scene.
Ugh.

Also, being the recovering-pyromaniac (good band name, must remember that one),
I might check out a band at The New Adelphi Club.
Felt like typing its real full-name.
It's 'new', cause it accidently got burnt down.
That has an air of relevence, lovely.
Anyway, they call themselves 'We Start Fires'.
I'll be fully prepared to ask for a refund.

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Will update sooner, about all things bright and beautiful.
Or not, as the case may be.

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Hell Is For Heroes - Slow Song (lyrics)

Come down,
to my level,
And share,
this cold with me,
The space,
once filled heavy,
With loss,
now lies empty,

I tried to run,
but i got stung,
A thousand times,
rolled into one,
The ache still burns,
with every word,
I broke to find,
the trust again,

Come down,
to my heaven,
And share,
this warmth with me,
We'll bleed,
here together,
And lick,
our wounds better,

I tried to run,
but i got stung,
A thousand times,
rolled into one,
The ache still burns,
with every word,
I broke to find,
the trust again,

I'll take the sting,
and close the door,
On everything,
that i became,
I close my eyes,
to see your face,
It holds me up,
it knocks me down,

You knock me down.

Comments

[hentaiko.livejournal.com]

i'd probably be afraid that I dont know half the random stuff you're talking about, but then again most of it isn't relevant to me, so i'm not. it sounds like you have a pretty active 'live-life' (hmm, pretty catchy...), where do you find out all this stuff? i cant seem to find anyone whos playing at Leeds, but there must be loads of big bands here. oh well. that hell is for heros song does indeed rock, you'll have to hook me up with new suggestions. i need my good music fix :P
well, i guess i'll catch u later. finally, 1am... i can play some Natural-Selection without anything getting in my way! i've done everything i need to do... project design, eating. only thing left is sleep... and thats overrated. although i do find i've been sleeping alot lately. i wonder what that means? maybe i'm getting too much sleep...

i'll update my livejournal when i start thinking again... :S

[greenhayze.livejournal.com]

Ooh. I haven't been sleeping so well lately. I'm sure it will even out. Been playing fuck loads of playstation games with new housemates.
Luckily I'm still unbeatable at Tekken.

Eat less peanuts, too much salt gives you kidney problems, doesn't it?

[confliction.livejournal.com]

Think I'm getting closer to sorting out my sleeping patterns. Hmmm... hang on. I went to bed at about 5 or 6 am this morning, and woke up at 10:30, rested for an hour listening to music. I've still got a long way to go till I'm sorted, heh. There is no pattern to my sleep.

You're only unbeatable because I'm not living with you ;) I'm thinking about getting a PS2, probably second hand so it won't be a nice new slim-line one. I wanna play final fantasy games so badly!

Don't worry about the salt, I only eat roasted or unsalted peanuts. Infact, at the moment I'm making my way through a bag of mixed nuts and raisins. All of this is so far a failed attempt at eating healthily. I'll sort myself out by the end of the week :)

Layturs
~JJ~

[greenhayze.livejournal.com]

Such detail, you should do your dissertation on your diet.

[(Anonymous)]

hey I found this and thought you'd like a read


One always has to know when a stage comes to an end.
If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters – whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.
Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents’ house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden?
You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won’t take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that.
But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.
None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back.
Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.
That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts – and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place.
Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.
Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the “ideal moment.” Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person – nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.
Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust.
Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

http://www.warriorofthelight.com/engl/

Jo