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conflictionThis has been a wild trip...
...i've actually come to realise i've failed myself...
You must realise i started with good intentions,
to open debate, to try and point out a few worrying issues.
I also tend to critique all the things i see in error,
without ever giving any compliments.
I fell into a hole that i know i have...
...i started taking things personally.
You can never be impartial if you convince yourself you're under attack.
I'm really sorry i fudged it all up.
I wish i had of realised.
Things would of been nicer.
I wouldn't of been so 'aggressive'.
Although one question, do you think there is conflict between Good and Evil?
Hey this all fits in...
It started off with me seeing worrying things in what you were saying...
...i'm not saying you were wrong, that would be...well...wrong...
...i was just concerned for you my friend.
I wanted to bring them to your attention, in a peaceful manner.
But maybe it was putting off posting that caused it?
Or it was bound to become it anyway...
...the 'it' i refer to, is that it became a conflict within me.
I've failed... no, wait...
...thats bad karma too...
...i've learnt something.
I hope i never do that again.
Need to get better at spotting that.
Kaz ;), man...
...a breath of fresh air.
At first your posts didn't affect my thoughts,
but let it be known that as i read through Beany's replies,
and also saw that my 'mass' posting had been 'edited' by fate...
...tears came to my eyes.
Your words echoed through my mind.
I'm sorry.
It would normally be a shame that my posts got cut off...
...'normally'... being... if i cared to get my 'say in.
But as a strong believer that things happen for a reason,
and now i have seen the errors of my ways,
i shall not be filling in the 'conclusions'.
They do however exist on my desktop...
...i don't know whether to read them and start criticizing myself...
...i might learn a lot...
...or delete them.
You are a good person, and yes, you can feel good about the things you enjoy. Well... at least in my opinion :P
A very good friend is more important... maybe? Equally important?
Hehe...
...now look at the pedantic-ness.
I mean to say, please forgive me.
I wish to continue being friends.
Take care dude,
JJ
I cried writing this too...
especially the bit where i say "i was concerned for you my friend"
because that was the original intention...
...but i lost my way.
I'm really sorry.
...i've actually come to realise i've failed myself...
You must realise i started with good intentions,
to open debate, to try and point out a few worrying issues.
I also tend to critique all the things i see in error,
without ever giving any compliments.
I fell into a hole that i know i have...
...i started taking things personally.
You can never be impartial if you convince yourself you're under attack.
I'm really sorry i fudged it all up.
I wish i had of realised.
Things would of been nicer.
I wouldn't of been so 'aggressive'.
Although one question, do you think there is conflict between Good and Evil?
Hey this all fits in...
It started off with me seeing worrying things in what you were saying...
...i'm not saying you were wrong, that would be...well...wrong...
...i was just concerned for you my friend.
I wanted to bring them to your attention, in a peaceful manner.
But maybe it was putting off posting that caused it?
Or it was bound to become it anyway...
...the 'it' i refer to, is that it became a conflict within me.
I've failed... no, wait...
...thats bad karma too...
...i've learnt something.
I hope i never do that again.
Need to get better at spotting that.
Kaz ;), man...
...a breath of fresh air.
At first your posts didn't affect my thoughts,
but let it be known that as i read through Beany's replies,
and also saw that my 'mass' posting had been 'edited' by fate...
...tears came to my eyes.
Your words echoed through my mind.
I'm sorry.
It would normally be a shame that my posts got cut off...
...'normally'... being... if i cared to get my 'say in.
But as a strong believer that things happen for a reason,
and now i have seen the errors of my ways,
i shall not be filling in the 'conclusions'.
They do however exist on my desktop...
...i don't know whether to read them and start criticizing myself...
...i might learn a lot...
...or delete them.
You are a good person, and yes, you can feel good about the things you enjoy. Well... at least in my opinion :P
A very good friend is more important... maybe? Equally important?
Hehe...
...now look at the pedantic-ness.
I mean to say, please forgive me.
I wish to continue being friends.
Take care dude,
JJ
I cried writing this too...
especially the bit where i say "i was concerned for you my friend"
because that was the original intention...
...but i lost my way.
I'm really sorry.
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Date: 2003-10-14 09:59 am (UTC)So friends we still are.
...
Peace
;)
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Date: 2003-10-14 10:30 am (UTC)I just wanted to add that I am not good, except by what God has done in me, for only God is good and only God can make pure. Accepting that compliment, without reservation, would kinda do what He's done a major injustice.
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Date: 2003-10-15 06:22 am (UTC)Wow, I had no idea my comment wouldnt sound like bolox to everyone, let alone be taken on board. Well, Im glad all this got better. Actually, great though your post was J, it was a little confusing who you were referring to, I guess that just bespeaks the high emotion levels in play.